Hormone Imbalance

Song: Private Emotion by Ricky Martin

I wish I could say it's just because as a child I drank a lot of milk from a drugged up bovine. But I don't like milk. While I'm not a cry baby, it seems I cry much more than my other friends. I'd like to attribute this to my ability to connect to my emotions more than others. I’m learning to put everything out there up front. It’s like a no holds bar. This is who I am. Accept me or move on type attitude. It usually doesn’t take long to know if someone actually gets me. I recently have shared this blog with those who could potentially have some interest in me. Why? Well I feel it’s an easy way to show a couple things. 1) I am a girl and have emotions 2) I will continue to have emotions. Am I emotion led? I try not to be most days. On a date recently, the subject of my blog came up. His astute observation and reservation about me was my 8 year ban of dating has caused me to be emotionally immature. I guess I should expect some criticism when I make myself so open and readily available. It made me question this whole blog process for a moment. Am I immature? It is true I do not have the years under my belt of horrible dates and awkward moments that I have learned to abhor yet embrace so fondly. Dating has caused me to realize what is most important to me. It has caused me to pinpoint more closely what it is I would like in a best friend. While one part of me wants to withdrawal and stay in the pain free- date free bubble, I know that to get to the desired end result there may be a bit of discomfort and self discovery. I don’t regret the blog or fully exposing my weaknesses for all to mock or perhaps even closely resemble.
I believe it's possible to remain a romantic with high hopes while being realistic. Funny but when you dream, you only see the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow- end result of happiness and not the muddy, murky, swamp-like river you must tread upstream to get to point B. I guess I'm out to prove what seems to be impossible by the masses. If anything, it should make for a good story.

Movie: Evita

I can't help but think of Madonna when I think of Ricky Martin. I think it may be several factors in my college days. But I felt it an appropriate to transition from Kiki to Madonna. I remember watching this movie and being so fascinated with the pictures and music. I never did engage much with the story but the beauty was there. Despite all the negative reviews, I still liked Madonna. How could you not like "Don't Cry for My Argentina?"